Study of every book I could get my hands on. And suffered the consequences.Īfter that time, around seven years ago, I began doing deep transformational work. My behaviours led me down dark paths, and I lost all that I had gained through destructive behaviours. My first chosen purpose and career exploded when I was still in Unversity. I was being mentored for a scholarship at Cambridge. Achieving high grades, and becoming one of the top students in my faculty. I did well in a strange Frankensteinian sense. I used these extremes and the pain to feed my ambitions and creativity as a poet, writer, and teacher. Couldn't own my own demons, let alone beat them. In my teenage years, I turned to violence, sex, and drugs. That day in the car park, when I overpowered him - my own father - was simultaneously one of the most horrific, agonizing and liberating moments of my life. If I sing, he becomes violent and aggressive. Attaching me up until the age of 21, when I overpowered him in a car park after he hit me with a hook. My father, whom I love, was frequently violent. So, a difficult family history, though there is a great strength, dignity and potential brilliance in them all, alongside the darkness. My Grandmother was also abandoned by her parents. Both Grandfathers faced violence and alcoholism in their lives.
My father married and divorced twice in between.
Three major times they parted and came back together. Quite some violence from both my parents. My father discoverded both activities and that led to a lot of shaming. I have been using porn since I was 11, and active sexually since I was 13. And to create words and stories, poetry of depth, humour and the power of transformation. To overcome the trauma and abuse I faced as a child by raising a family with passion, love, strength and wisdom. I want to empower others into deep purpose and openness though transcendence of their limits and fears. My purpose is as follows: Teach, write and raise a family. I've been working through a relationship with sex for several years now.
0 kommentar(er)
